I Miss My Boy!!

Luc's grandpa and grandma "kidnapped" Luc for most of the week and took him to Panguitch to get the house closed up for winter.  He has called every day to tell me the fun things they are doing there.  They found a field where there are a lot of jackrabbits.  He was able to use his gun and do a little rabbit hunting.  He loved it.  He is coming back this afternoon. I am soooo excited!! 

When the nurse coordinator called last time with Luc's blood counts, she also told me that Dr. Lemons would like Luc to have an MRI after his echocardiogram on Friday when he goes in for his next treatment. (I didn't think he would have to be scanned until December.)  Whenever scans come up my stomach starts to get so anxious.  I want so badly to receive good news, but for the past year the scans have not been very positive.  Please pray that the tumor has at least stopped growing.  Last time, at the hospital, the doctor said that if a scan showed that the tumor was still growing then they would stop the chemo treatments.  I don't know what we would do after that.  I am trying to stay positive.  I know that the Lord is in control.  He can see the whole picture and I trust that the best thing for Luc and all of us will happen.  This life is such a short "blip" in our eternal lives.  I am sure that when we get to the other side, and are able to see all the good that comes from those extremely difficult hardships we have had to endure, we will rejoice in the wisdom of our Father.  Our job is to keep our eyes focused on Him and never turn away.  I know He loves each of us more than we can fathom, despite our faults and frailties. I also know that, at the most difficult times in our lives, our Savior will carry us if we will allow Him.  I have had to ask for that help both for myself and for my boy.  I know we could never do this alone.  I realize my utter dependance on Him.  There are not words to describe how thankful I am for my Savior.

Marley